Monday, January 17, 2011
My dad died six years ago. I don't think about him very often because when I do I can hardly stand the feelings.
Dad was a complicated person. Not always nice, and sometimes even cruel. Even a little bit scary. But also:
Loving. A wonderful person to talk to about books and about problems.
Charismatic. His light shone on everything around him. He was brilliant. He knew things, and he knew how to think about things. He understood jokes. He understood me.
He never laughed at me, not even when I was at my most puerile. He made me feel as if I was a force to be reckoned with, even when I was young and stupid. He loved me for my writing, my conversation, my poetry, my soul, my spirit. His eyes told me I was a worthy friend.
When he hugged me close his big red beard tickled my cheek.